Mother's Day

So I survived Mother’s Day. I hope everyone had a fabulous day. I did some volunteer work and spent some time with my family… Will be doing more of that. I am struggling with sadness right now. My early life was filled with pain and my mother was incredibly cruel. Sometimes it feels like the pain will never heal, lime I will have this deep grief alongside any happiness I feel for the rest of my life. I associate love with the pain of loss and a profound sadness that is like the sadness you feel when you comfort a child you know is dying. I guess maybe it’s because I know my inner child has long since died and I am trying to come to terms with it. I don’t know. Maybe others feel the same things. I just don’t know